This is not a Monday Musings post.

I mean it is essentially.

But it’s not.

I am going to do away with that category. Once I log on to my personal laptop (likely months from now) and figure out how to do so. Maybe I could do it on the app but I’m a Millennial and I like to buy into that cliche/meme for needing a big screen for certain tasks.

I’m going back to using redacted. And I’ve decided friendship is not a path forward for us. I hung out with redacted a few more times since my Crying post and each time left me feeling… not great.

I’d love to claim confusing but that’s an easy lie to tell myself. There was clarity. Soooooo much clarity. Potentially, not the clarity I was hoping for, hence why confusing is an entertaining delusion. But I will not be deluded. Not this time.

I don’t really feel like writing all about the bits and bobs of my life recently. In general, life is good. I like my friends and spending time with them which I have been doing plenty of lately. I like where I’m at, both physically and metaphysically. But I do feel like I’m in a period of reckoning. And it’s strange. Because it’s not uncomfortable in the way most liminal periods have been in my life. But it’s not exactly comfortable either. It just is what it is. I’m in no rush to escape it. I’m not overly examining it. I’m just kind of being. And that feels like enough. At least for now.