I’m too all over the place at the moment to write a coherent post.

Please remind me to put in a repair request to my apartment manager for my oven.

Beyond the oven snafu, I hosted a lovely brunch yesterday. Will reflect on that more later. Share a recipe. And figure out if I want to share photos on my blog or not. Probably will. But also a bit paranoid with how tech is evolving. Yet here I am sharing my inner thoughts on the web for anyone to see.

Was thinking about my weird AI rant post prior to this. Why did I feel so uncomfortable with it? Possibly even a bit ashamed. I think it’s because I’m an academic, an “intellectual”, and there is a snobbery about being above it. Well I’m not. And I don’t think anyone is.

Went on a date with a 30 year old this Saturday. A definite no. I kind of figured in advance but I wanted to lean into being open. Also kudos to them for asking for my number in person! A date from not a dating app. I’ll have to tell you about that story later.

And yap about dating too. Even though I hate it. And feel weird that I don’t decenter men as much as I’d like to. It’s like that weird AI shame in another flavor.

My apartment is coming along, but omg it needs so much effort still. Once I survive this semester, I expect to have the capacity to get it to the finish line.

I keep dreaming of art to hang, a disco ball planter, plants, etc. I’m going to have fun shopping. But my current mantra is let’s do that slowly and let my bank account recover.

I really need to sit down and look at my finances. Make sure I’m on track paying off my last student loan, building my savings, and I really should up my 401k contributions. I gotta figure out how to best balance my tax bracket so I don’t pay in as much again as I did this past tax day.

I need to update my address on everything. I do have mail forwarding set up at least.

I need to go get my driver’s license at the DMV. Not really sure what’s going on with it.

I give my last final is tonight. Can’t wait is an understatement! I caught up quite a bit on grading last night at the sacrifice of my sleep – was up until 2am. But I feel good that I stopped dragging to do it. Also less stressed about dropping the ball on my Saturday section after seeing some test scores/grades. Still not thrilled with how I handled that section but it is what it is. And it wasn’t as bad as I thought. Still don’t know if or when I’m teaching a summer section. I should probably get on that.

Still sitting on emails I probably should have sent months ago at my day job. Ugh why am I like that? Why am I human? I’m getting there though.

I want to write more. I want to make bucket lists. Write responses to what I see online. Dig up my old poetry and repost it.

I want to create and consume.

I want to find stillness and peace.

I want to have a tidy house. I often feel a bit overwhelmed at the moment and jealous of people with partners that help. But like do they really? And we sure know my last one didn’t, in fact they made more work.

I want to catch up with my friends. Phone calls. Letters. Postcards. And visits. 

I need to make summer plans with my parents. Book that Ireland trip with my mother and sister. Plan a family reunion because well someone has to do it. My cousin said she’d help. We are gonna call in Project 2027 😂

Okay, I should probably get back to my day job and do those tasks I said I wasn’t going to keep putting off.