I’ve been meaning to blog.

I’ve been meaning to do a lot of things.

And like most things, and most people, I’ve made them more complicated in my head than they need to be, and therefore I find them way too overwhelming to start.

I dream of writing more meaningful pieces.

Thought out pieces.

Edits.

Multiple drafts.

But here I am settling on a stream of consciousness piece.

I started.

I figured getting one out sooner is better than waiting for that right time for my dream piece.

Small wins.

And yet, even with this one I’m already overcomplicating it with thinking that I can have a series called Monday Musings that’s just my stream of consciousness written from my insomniac moments. (Stop back next Monday to see if that sticks).

It’s funny, I gave up blogging about two years ago but then I got curious about Substack, which brought me back to blogging. And I was obsessed with Substack for a hot minute around the new year. I thought it had me inspired. But it’s just not it.

I think I’m going to delete it.

Maybe not my account. But my newsletter.

I just don’t want to do it.

I hate notes.

It feels desperate.

And that kind of desperation is what has made me step back from social media.

But I still want to read some of the pieces. I have on my to do list to see if I can get Substacks on an RSS feed. (If you already know, please tell me!)

I deleted my Reddit account.

And Meetup account.

I haven’t had Facebook for years. I did try to get a shell account for Marketplace around the new year but I was denied! Apparently, it’s a known issue. But I guess it was a blessing.

I haven’t had Instagram since 2024, and that was short lived from when I thought I needed to revisit it after yoga teacher training in 2022 (I had deleted it originally in 2016 when I started grad school). The people in that training were weird and definitely guided me off my path for a moment. But that’s too much to think or write about now.

I deleted Twitter when Muskrat took over.

I do have LinkedIn but I keep that work focused and am happy with my presence there.

And I have Bluesky, which is mostly work with a sprinkle of dogs. I like what I post there. Less so of what I read there. Especially lately.

In general, I’ve been more and more disillusioned with the Internet these days.

I’m not really sure where I planned on taking this post. And I have so many thoughts. But I guess I’m uncertain with how I want to interact with the Internet these days. (Do I want to interact with the Internet?) And while I figure that out, I’m hesitant to say anything at all.